Being a Dad is:

crazy
awesome
exciting
fulfilling
fun
scary
stressful
hard
emotional
inspiring
difficult
weird
radical
important
the best
driven
hopeful
rockin
hilarious
a gift
worth it.



I could go on and on about the different words that describe what it feels like, to me, to be a Dad. It really changes minute by minute. Once second Adler is sleeping soundly, looking innocent and beautiful, which melts away any concern I have in life and let's me know that I'm so blessed to have him. The next second, he's puking on my t-shirt or crying so hard that his lip quivers, which stresses me out beyond belief because I don't always know what to do. The great thing about it though is that, whether in the first second, or the next, I feel this unbelievable love for him. I don't get stressed about not wanting to be a Dad or feeling like I could give up, but more that I want to make him feel better because he's my child and I love him. It's funny the parallel to God there, in that God so often has looked at me and wanted to make me feel better but it takes me calming down and turning my eyes back towards Him. In Adler's case..he usually just needs to squeeze out a little poop and then he feels better, but you get the picture. I have a Father's love for Adler Ryan and it's so cool because it's painted a picture to me that God loves me this much and that's pretty awesome.